Did anyone instinctively know they had cancer 2-3 years before diagnosis?

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Did anyone instinctively know they had cancer 2-3 years before diagnosis?

by surviving6 on Mon Jul 08, 2019 02:18 PM

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For the past 3 years, my weight plummeted from 145 to 99 pounds.  Everyone accused me of having an eating disorder or being hypochondriac.  I started having a lot of mouth sores that led to several biopsies, none of which showed any sign of cancer.  My husband of 18 years told everyone I was losing my mind and even told my children to ignore me.  I kept begging him to pray for me, that I was dying, because I sincerely felt like I was.  Some days I would have spurts of energy and of course, that doesn't resemble a dying person, but other days, i would be confined to bed with fatigue and general malaise.  Then my husband left me last year.  He took my 3 younger children away from me, and they have all been hateful towards me since, except my 15 year old daughter, who lives with me full time.  My oldest son of whom I was extremely close to his whole life, refuses to see me.  Then on June 26th, a chest CT revealed masses on both sides of my lungs and a PET scan is scheduled tomorrow with a needle biopsy the following day.  I am completely alone, scared and confused. My Oncologist is very worried about me and can't understand my family dynamics.  The same spiritual awareness I have had for 3 years is deepening, as if I'm approaching the end of my life.  Yesterday a spiritual advisor did a reading on my energy and said that my adrenal glands were exhausted.  I read today that is one of the first places that lung cancer invades.  I am looking for support, emotional and spiritual from this group because my husband has destroyed all of my relationships with family and some close friends.  I fear that I will die alone.  Has anyone known they were sick, even dying, but noone would listen to them?  Even leave them because they were tired of hearing "help me?"  Or do I have the most evil ex-husband in the Universe?  I'm so scared!  I'm only 51 and my youngest is only 13 years old.  My children were the center of my world, and 3/4 of them took my ex's side.  I often wonder if this is God's way of preparing my children for me to pass on.  But it is scary going through it alone.  I have to take an Uber to the hospital and its embarrassing to tell the Doctor what my husband has done to me.  Prayers and Blessings to all, especially those in my situation.

RE: Did anyone instinctively know they had cancer 2-3 years before diagnosis?

by Sandrasheppard on Mon Jul 08, 2019 03:23 PM

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Dear one,

I am so sorry your family is treating you this way.

You are never alone! God, good angels are around you, every moment. 

I pray you can go out in nature and "feel the awe" and connection.

Hold on to your precious memories, for they will lighten you, when you need it.

So much love, strength and hope to you?

RE: Did anyone instinctively know they had cancer 2-3 years before diagnosis?

by Sandrasheppard on Mon Jul 08, 2019 03:25 PM

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Yes, I has an instinctual feeling too.

I believe my "depression" has accelerated the disease. I am working on that, for quality of life.

RE: Did anyone instinctively know they had cancer 2-3 years before diagnosis?

by PunkyD on Tue Jul 09, 2019 07:49 AM

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Dear surviving6,

I am so sorry that you are in such a difficult situation. I really feel for you. I also can't understand your family dynamics. I am sure it's complicated. Do your ex and kids not believe that you are ill??? According to what you have written, you haven't actually been diagnosed yet, correct? So there is still hope that it is something else. Maybe you can have a talk with your oldest son? Why does he refuse to see you? Sending you prayers and the best possible outcome. Focus right now on your health, and get to the bottom of it. Hang in there.

Punky

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