Phil was so strong

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Phil was so strong

by eastwest on Mon Aug 22, 2011 06:29 PM

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Hi friends  just got released from the hospital. 2 day trips to the ER and then an admisson for another. Diagnosis?? Who knows! First they thought it was pre appendicitis, then kidney stones or infection. It was none as far we can tell. I tried another hospital(should have gone to U of Penn). two nurses hollaring at a patient "I don't have all day. I have other patients!" My pain level dropped from a 9 to a 3 and they asked if I wanted morhine! NO thankyou. next day I said I had a headache and they wanted to give me another narcotic, dilaudid. I said I have tylenol in my purse. The nice nurse laughed and said "I don't see a thing." No wonder why people get addicted. I am home and still in a bit of pain but saw my own Dr this AM(who away when all this transpired) thinks I did some nerve damage pushing the mower on the hill due in part to my arthritis. Such wonderful "golden" years. Right.  

 All I wanted was Phil to be here to hold me. I felt like I had broken out of prison after such a short time. Felt guilty that I put Scott and Noel thru more torment. And I thought... my dear Phil never complained and he spent weeks in the hospital.He was so strong.  Irene

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by sanjim on Tue Aug 23, 2011 08:07 PM

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Irene ,

 Sorry to hear you are having problems, I am hope that you are feeliing better. I do know what you mean by the wonerful GOLDEN years. The golden years mean seeing to many Doctors! I had a simple cataract surgery on my left eye on July 5th, since then I have been nearly blind, I am slowly getting my vision back I went to the DR again yesterday, he said in another month I should be able to see well enought to have a new prescription, but I still have another cataract that need to be removed. I also have arthritis and I am going through testing for nerve damage. I have had several back surgeriies and now they my knees are giving me a lot of problems. Like you I would have felt better if JIm had been here just to hold me and tell me it will all be OK. Jim was like your husband strong ,never complaining, many time I woud know he was in a lot of pain most of the time he would not even take meds for pain, he said they made  him sleep, and  he wanted to be awake. Jim and Phil  were special!  One day at a time,  Sandra

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by eastwest on Wed Aug 24, 2011 01:04 AM

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Hi Sandra 

  Phil was same as Jim!  He hated to take anything that would make him drowsy. Just two days before he died they told him he should take the cherrytussin to break up the congestion in his throat. He took one dose and the next day he said it worked but made him drowsy and so he didn't take it again. I think Jim and Phil wanted to be aware and with us every minute they could.

I just don't understand the loss of such good men. Men who are needed dearly in this world and set great examples. Our sons miss him so much.He was our north star.

 Just tonight we were looking at pictures during our oldest grandaughter's boyfriend's bday celebration. I made it thru, without crying the way I did last month at our grandson's party.

Think I was just too tired tonight to cry.Moving things around.  Our older son Scott took our bed and Phil's dresser back to Virginia with him today. Saving my dresser and mirror for our granddaughter. Then I am getting a smaller white bed and dresser. Our younger son Noel hates me to talk about giving anything away that Phil had.

 If keeping it all would bring him back I would, even those darn 2003 fishing magazines I found!  Irene

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