I feel trapped

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I feel trapped

by PKSstaystrong on Sun Sep 11, 2011 11:55 PM

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My father just passed on Sept 1, but I still feel like it is getting harder each day. I can't concentrate on school, or anything else, and I feel like I'm having a panic attack when I get the slightest bit stressed. Everyday seems so hard, and I wonder why pancreatic cancer had to take him. I really could use him here right now... I miss my biggest fan. All I do is think about my dad and relive memories in my mind, every moment of the day. I can't stop thinking about it, nor do I want to. I can't believe I held his hand and watching him slip away. I wish I could have done something to save him. Cancer is the WORST.

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by Midwestgirl on Mon Sep 12, 2011 01:12 AM

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Oh, PK, pleeeaaaassseee give yourself time.  Since I lost my father 7/30/11, it DOES seem harder at first, but please know they are at peace, no longer suffering, and your dad IS with you...all the time, just on another level.  Talk to him like you would any other time..he'll hear you and will send you messages to let you know he's around....trust me.  We ALL wish we could do something to save our loved ones, but we need to know it's God's Will.  I held my Dad's hand, also, before and during his passing, and I will never regret it!  I'm happy I was there, and you will be, too....in time.

I am sending prayers to you to help you through this difficult time.  Please do I (and many others) are here for you.

Love and (((((HUGS))))),

DeAnne

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by eastwest on Mon Sep 12, 2011 12:29 PM

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It is going to take TIME and lots of it to feel even a little better. Advice I read said try to treat yourself with TLC because it is like you had major surgery and are in the ICU. It is 5 months since my husband Phil died and many days I have trouble concentrating and I do feel panicy at times too. hugs irene

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by aunismom on Tue Sep 13, 2011 06:14 AM

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My mom died on April 29, 2011.  I have good days and bad days.  I really did not have "grief" until about a week after her passing.  I think when all the family left, and we finally stopped having to be somewhere it all kind of sunk in that I was not going to see or hear her anymore.  Today is a bad day and I don't know what made today one of those days, but we go on and we hold on to every memory we have.  Just know that you are not alone.

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by PKSstaystrong on Sat Sep 17, 2011 12:39 AM

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Thank you everyone... and I'm so sorry that you all lost someone too :( I appreciate your support.

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