Spiritual Experiences

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Spiritual Experiences

by wishuponastar on Wed Sep 28, 2011 11:45 PM

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Hi I have had spiritual experiences since I was a young girl. I am hoping that others can share their experiences during a cancer journey.

Here's mine: The part when I had signs started in January. Mom was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer in June 2009. In January 2011 I found out it spread to her brain. I was devastated. On my birthday, January 26 we were on our way back from a day trip. My husband and son were asleep. It was a rainy day but it cleared up on the drive home. As it cleared, simpsons (from the TV show) clouds appeared. They are my absolute favorite clouds. It felt like a sign that it was going to be okay. In the following week on my drive home I pulled into my drive and behind my house were dolphin clouds that soon turned into seahorse clouds. My mom loved the ocean more than anything and would spend the vacation just staring at the sea. It felt like I was being told mom will find her peace. Then a few weeks ago, before we were told mom's prognosis is 2-8weeks I dreamt that she was going to die on a friday and it'll be stormy. She died last friday and it was stormy up until she died then it became a beautiful blue-sky day. I had left the hospital during her last hours to take care of the dog for my dad and pick up my brother. As soon as we arrived to the hospital and turned the car off we both turned our heads to see who had knocked on the car window - no one was there. It was two very distinct knocks. We arrived in mom's room with no less than 5 minutes before she took her last breath. I like to think it was my mom knocking to say "Hey babies! I'm walking!" She wasn't able to walk months before her death and even before cancer she battled walking because of RA. Those things turned on a light in my heart I hadn't felt in years. In a way, it made her end of life journey easier for me to accept.

Please share stories like this you've experienced.

RE: Spiritual Experiences

by Losingmydad on Tue Dec 09, 2014 06:19 AM

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Thank you for sharing that experience. My dad is dying now and although I do not have a medic time frame it will likely be weeks or months (if he's lucky). I have been a complete wreck wondering where he will go when he expires and whether he is ready for death. I worried that he may be scared but with only living family around who he has a tendency to want to shelter from his fears, he may be all alone with his fears. I began praying for a sign from above that an afterlife is real. Since then I've had or realized several. The first "sign" actually took place a year ago. We suspect my dad has had cancer for a few years with vague symptoms that no one caught. At the time, I was home from college and dad was up on a ladder that he had propped on the stairs painting the very high ceiling above the stairs. Watching him made me nervous so I went into my room to do homework. My room is the first door at the top of the stairs and he had a big shop light he had been using to paint. He had gotten down for a bathroom break and climbed back up the ladder only to realize he forgot to turn the shop light back on. I didn't hear him but as he told me after, he mumbled "shit I forgot to put the light back on" and the light turned on. I had my door open and I saw the light turn on and knew that my dad was on the ladder but it didn't register. He called my name and asked me if I had turned the light on and that's when I took notice. I told him I hadn't turned the light on but I saw it turn on. The part that really touched me was that my dad doesn't believe in "ghosts" or "spirits" or anything unexplained and he was floored by this. He is a lifelong catholic but never discusses his views and I think this was the first experience like this he's had. He actually said outloud "well thank you whoever did that" I told him it must have been grandma, his mom that lived with us and he took care if for years. He was her only child and she was always making sure he was "safe" while she was alive. The reason this seems significant to me now is because I've read a lot about how the dying are greeted by their relatives or friends as they pass over to the other side to help them find the light. One blog that I read described the process of terminal illness to involve the relatives sometimes waiting around until the person afflicted with disease is finally "ready" and passes. It comforts me a lot to think that my grandma or someone close to him is with him now getting him ready or waiting for him to let go so that they can help him with his next step. Please post any other signs from your mom if you notice them. I'm sure others reading will take comfort as well. Thank you for posting.
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