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Dreams

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Dreams

by PKSstaystrong on Sat Oct 08, 2011 03:39 AM

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Does anyone dream about the loved ones they have lost? I dream about my dad pretty often. I lost him on Sept. 1, 2011. The other night I dreamed that we were sitting at the kitchen table, eating breakfast. The sunshine was shining in on us from the window, and he turned and talked to me about something he was reading in the paper. It felt so good to dream of him. Life has been so hard ever since I lost him, and in my dreams it is as though I still have him. It makes me feel like I can get through the day. I miss him so much lately. I think it's really starting to hit me that he's gone. I honestly didn't believe he was dying of cancer. I had hope that he would be okay. Never thought I would be living my life without my biggest fan.

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by lolis33 on Sat Oct 08, 2011 04:04 AM

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Yes, I do.

October 1, 2011 marked 1 year from the day of my dad dying of pancreatic cancer.    It's incredibly tough going day by day while it stretches into weeks and then months -year as the heart scar forms while tearily missing the face-to-face presence and love of a family member.  The ambush moments pop up where I think to call Dad up about something and then remember...

The few times I've dreamt of Dad he didn't talk but was sitting in a plush chair in a home we lived in during my teens, looking at me, smiling and nodding his head "yes". My mother has heard him breathing next to her in bed early in the morning before fully waking up.

My world feels lonelier with him gone and won't ever be the same...I trudge along easier knowing he's in the arms of the Good Shepherd and I'll join that flock oneday.

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by eastwest on Sat Oct 08, 2011 12:10 PM

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I had one actual dream that I remember. I was just drifting off to sleep and my husbnad Phil appeared. He was actually "glowing" with health and happiness and he was holding on of our previous dogs on a leash. He didn't speak. But when I told him I loved him he patted his heart as if to say back at you. I asked if i would see him soon and he had no answer as if the time where he was was different than mine. I woke and was crying but it was tears of joy to see him without that cancer. Irene

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by PKSstaystrong on Sat Oct 08, 2011 04:21 PM

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Wow, I can't imagine what the last year has been like. I know I too will experience it, but I can't imagine an entire year without my dad. I've seen him close to every single day since the day I was born. It's so strange to not have him there. I want to hear his voice... his stories, and tell him things. Every day I think of something I want to tell him and am reminded that he is gone. I hope so much that one day I see him again. It makes life a little easier to get through when I think that someday I will join him.

You said about your mother hearing him breathing.. what an amazing thing. Sometimes I think I hear my dad's footsteps (he used to pace a lot). Maybe the nod is saying yes i'm still with you. :)

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