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Hello I am sorry for late reply . I really feel for you right now ,the journey is not something I would wish on anyone. I have lost my only true friend and my love .I have never felt so lost and sad .My granddaughter is the only reason I’m still here. Sophia is my light and is the only reason I will stay on this earth. The last 8 weeks have been soul destroying and I wish i had another 30 years with my best friend my husband Brenton he truly was the most beautiful person I have ever met and he has loved me purely for me and I for him .I hope you are surrounded by people that are true to you and your partner you need that.Even though no one or nothing can replace the hollow felling and sadness you feel when our your partner is deteriorating in front of you it’s horrific and changes everything very fast . My thoughts are with you and I can only say is hold him and tell each other everything you have wanted to before he is too sick that you can’t even hug . Take care of yourself as well. It’s easy to say but something we forget to do while our loved one Is all you live and breathe. Thinking of you
My husband was 48years young and is my best friend my happiness.My husband passed away in my arms on the 22nd of May 2018 .Gee I really am hating the world right now and it’s not a healthy place to be.Brento n my husband died of RCC RENAL KIDNEY CANCER MATASTISED TO THE LUNGS BRAIN AND LIVER. We decided that he would be staying home with me and not going to hospice . I have to admit, I’m lost and feel so sad that I can’t wrap my head around the fact I will never hear his voice or be able to see him again .It is a life sentence being the one left behind.I am a strong ,independent women but we all have a breaking point and I think I have hit that wall now.I am very thankful my husband is free of the pain now ,for that I am grateful .But for having to live without him is just plain cruel,Cancer is cruel it is sole destroying and I don’t know if I can be here for 20 or so years without him because I know I don’t want to.My husband was the most beautiful person I have ever met.And I will honour him always.You never know what’s around the corner ,but I would never of guessed I would be without my best friend my happiness. My husband.
Hi Margo, I appreciate your compassion and thankyou for taking the time to write me .life will never be the same but I know that i have to do what all the things my husband and I wanted to do and I will.I will and do miss my husband terribly and will keep him in my heart for eternity who at a beautiful soul he was . Catherine t
Hello Marin ,I apologise not returning email sooner .I have been off line for a couple of days .I would like to say Thamk you very much for taking the time to give me words of genuine support .Much Appreciated.I have to be strong now and Finnish all the projects my true love and I started and wanted to achieve and I will .And my little precious Sophia and I will create a memorial spot for our pop off who will be with us at all times.i miss him so much ! The love we share is everlasting and pure and I will always honour my best friend my world my Husband. Catherine
Hello, thank you your thoughts are appreciated,Yes my husband and Brenton is now at peace and I truly know this I felt it.And I am happy for my amazing husband who was my world and will always be my hero . Tomorrow is his resting day my time flies it really does when your life is turned upside drown by the cruelty of cancer .But I must stay strong for him and my family my son and his beautiful partner and my gorgeous granddaughter Sophia she needs me and my husband knows I will always put Sophia needs first .Thankyou very much and I would love a cure to be allowed out to us the people it would be such a nicer place without it.
Hello, Thankyou for your kind words much appreciated. Tomorrow is my beautiful husbands funeral . I have kept busy makinhg sure his wishes are honoured for service. My pain is raw I am sleeping on chair in kitchen I can’t sleep in our room .i love music but can’t hear it right now everything is so painfully quiet and I’m the boisterous one. How ironic. My husband and I had a lot of projects we wanted to do and my mission will be just that to Finnish what we started .I want to do a garden for him with our little granddaughter Sophia she loved her pop off that’s what she called him .So we together make a colourful garden .I know it hasn’t hit me yet even though I’m aching inside I know the worst is yet to come but Brenton is in Peace I know this for sure I felt it And that I’m happy .My husband told me before he passed to just take care of Sophia and that she needs me and that I know is true.i will honour my husbands wishes my husband was the most beautiful person I had ever met .I will be loyal to him til we meet again .yours kindly Catherine
Hello Margo , On the 22nd of May2018 at 8:15 am my best friend my beautiful husband passed away in my arms .So yes he is at peace. I’m happy he is at peace he was mentally hating what was happening to his physical and mental state so I am glad he is free from the prison of cancer.But it is soul destroying for me I’m 47 years old and so saddened and empty and I do not really want to be on this hell on earth without my husband his funeral is Friday I’m devastated to say the least my gorgeous funny intelligent husband is not by my side and I have a life sentence not having him here with me I apologise but I’m so sad for myself and my husband we had so many plans and so much love for one another I will never be the same ,
Thankyou much appreciated Marin .The world needs more love and compassionate people . I think this world would be so much nicer if it was so .
Hi, Our oncologist washed his hands of my husband months ago they had already made u there mind they couldn’t help him .We have had a fight all the way. To get his 15 cm right kidney tumour removed that was bleeding into his bladder the doctor looked at me while my husband was in hospital and said that it’s not legistically viable to operate . I was livid and absolutely disgusted .I said to him so my husband isn’t worth saving your telling me ? Who give you the right to play god with my husbands life .So you see it has not given us much faith in the medical world .I have begged for surgery for him ,oxygen and been refused flat out . My husband loved life and we loved our life we have had a amazing relationship full of laughter and deep love for one another.I would do anything to save my husband.But unfortunately it took me to write to health commissioner and ombudsman of health to get any help for my husband.I will say one thing the palliative lady and doctor we have had visit us the last three weeks have been wonderful and lovely people.But it’s too late to save my husband because he is shutting down the last few days .I got told my husband has only a few days left but deep down I already know this. I am happy for you having survived this terrible fungus cancer you obviously had compassionate team of doctors and I’m very glad your family gets to love and be with you longer I truly am. But we weren’t so lucky we have gone against the system and been punished for our beliefs in no radiation or chemo our choice and we shouldn’t of been banished for it . Thankyou for your positivity it’s good to hear a successful outcome and I’m sure you hold your family dear .My husband is my world my best friend and my true love and I will always protect him but sadly I have to face the reality I can’t save him nothing can know.
Hello ,and thankyou for your kind words . I have a palliative care lady and doctor which have been on board the last three weeks .They really have been wonderful with me and my beautiful husband. They respected the fact my husband and I made a deal that he would not go to hospice and that I only would take care of him .And a nurse would come to our home and just get medications ready for me to give to my husband for the transition when that time came .That time has come unfortunately too quickly the last 78 hours has been a nightmare my husband has delirium and has shallow breathing and a hiccup sound that’s been going for the same amount of time .The nurse who came in today said to me that I think your husband has couple days til end of life .Just tonight it’s 1.45am here in Australia and his breathing now I can hardly here I told him it’s ok to leave .His body isn’t serving him anymore it’s time to be free of this world and I give him permission to leave me and that it’s ok.That he needs to be pain free now and leave here to be somewhere better and painless. It’s heart breaking to watch the one you have loved for a lifetime and will for eternity Be taken by such a cruel unforgiving fungus Cancer is cruel . Thank you for spending the time to post you kind thought I really appreciate it.
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